January 20th, 2012

Front Porch Love

Boy-meets-girl love story begins in high school, complete with shirts, ties, and knee socks.

She’s 17. He’s 18.

They fall deeply, ridiculously, intensely in love. The easy kind of love.

3 weeks in they talk marriage.

More certainty in her bones than for any other decision in her life.

Marriage at the tender 19 and 20 years of age.

It’s better than they had ever dared to hope.

Travel and nesting and learning and living and enjoying each other.

Reality rudely intruding at times with humanity’s selfishness, but love still greater.

Finally, the arrival of a new kind of love in the form of a babe.

With it comes a new kind of stress and challenge to the union. The need to work harder.

Still love. But the hard-work kind of love.

The easy love fades into oblivion.

8 years of marriage later and there are two kids, a minivan, and a whole lot of unresolved distance.

Heavy responsibilities, sleepless nights, long working hours, unmet expectations, unfair expectations, and still… love?

But love doesn’t come easy anymore.

Love is now on the back burner.

Snide remarks and grumpy attitudes rule the roost as selflessness takes a backseat.

And the love feels different.

Trapping.

Heavy.

Lukewarm.

And yet, hopeful.

There it is, in the fiber of their being, a smouldering and undeniable love for each other.

As their hands brush in the kitchen, and he kisses his bride.

She fearfully lets some of the walls come down enough to really kiss him back.

And she offers words of understanding and appreciation, and a foot rub.

And he gets up early with the kids so she can sleep in.

They love now with intent. With action. With selfless choices.

With a daily surrender to self.

They trudge along in the thickness of life continuing the climb until they are rewarded with the view from the top.

Stopping to take a breath when the sun breaks through the clouds and gives perspective again.

Denying the urge to live for self and instead living for another. For love. For life.

Until it’s second-nature. Until it’s easy again.

And at the end they rock in their chairs on the front porch with grey hair while holding hands and reminiscing.

Of how they loved and loved and loved.

And how that love looked different depending on the season.

Sometimes difficult to see through the haze of humanity.

But sometimes felt with passion, known with certainty, and enjoyed with abandon.

The sometimes-glimpse of heaven.

They never gave in to hopelessness. They knew that it was worth the work.

Until it was easy again.

They never stopped loving.

 

 

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  • http://www.betweenloadsoflaundry.com/ Margi

    Wow. I could so relate!! I love the way you put my thoughts to words… hubs and I were 20 and 18 when we got married… and the adjustments came hard & fast… and isn’t that just it? To purposefully love each other when the instinct and selfish nature don’t find it that easy…

    • http://www.redandhoney.com Beth

      Yup, that’s exactly it. Loving with purpose, rather than expecting your feelings to do it for you. Good thoughts, friend.

  • http://wifelife2011.blogspot.com Grace

    This is beautiful. It gives me hope and encouragement as a fairly newly wed. Thank you.

    • http://www.redandhoney.com Beth

      Thank-you! Sometimes I fear that talking about the rough times of marriage will scare the newlywed folks, but really I should know better. Hopeful honesty wins every time :)

  • Stephanie

    Love it! So true.

    • http://www.redandhoney.com Beth

      Thanks, Steph!

  • http://movingwithGod.blogspot.com Alyssa

    I love this too, it articulates so much of my hopes and prayers for my marriage too! Thanks for writing.

    • http://www.redandhoney.com Beth

      Thanks Alyssa, glad you enjoyed it. You’re also a fairly “newly” wed too, aren’t you?

  • Leanne Friesen

    Beautiful!! and a perfect description!

    • http://www.redandhoney.com Beth

      Thanks so much!!

  • http://www.anearlierheaven.wordpress.com Crystal Walker

    Love is such a beautiful tapestry, ever-changing and transforming us if we let it. I love the beauty of reflecting on our first love for each other, and how it grew and deepened and struggled and strengthened over the years. I think the “hard” of loving is what makes it so very, very good.

    Now if only we could always see the depth of your description even in the difficult times!

    • http://www.redandhoney.com Beth

      It is a beautiful tapestry, yes. I love that imagery! It does seem the best things in life are hard work, eh? But yes, so worth it!

  • Ash

    Yes!!

    • http://www.redandhoney.com Beth

      :)

  • http://www.mondorfment.blogspot.com Honey

    Lovely. We were 19 and 25. Married after only dating a few months. Everything that could go wrong, went wrong. Heavily passionate love and lust and it’s been 14 (?) years and he still makes my breath catch, my heart melt and my body turn toward him while sleeping. May your 8 years go to 80. And, remember to weed your garden. After all, you can’t have healthy fruits if it’s allowed to become overgrown and ignored. Seek someone every year or so to take a marriage class with or to simply talk out small issues. Remind yourselves WHY you married and WHY you’re happy to come home to one another. :)

    Btw…LOVE your name! ;)

    ~Honey
    @Mondorfment
    http://www.mondorfment.blogspot.com

    • http://www.redandhoney.com Beth

      What a beautiful love story! I just love it when people refuse to give up, even during the difficult times. Definitely great advice there to always work on things – that’s so important!

  • http://www.kristaewert.com Krista

    Beautiful Beth!