{Day 7} Quiet Hopes and Fears
I love photography, and I would love to do it as a business one day. Confession: I’m scared out of my ever-loving mind that I will fail miserably and completely. Or worse, that I will be only ever be “just ok” at it. Mediocrity is a hard pill to swallow for an NF-type Idealist like myself.
Recently I was asked by a friend to take some photos of their family. I said yes, of course, and proceeded to be uber-excited and freakin’-nervous all at once. My first “real” photo shoot. I charged just a very small amount for my time, and plan to work from there as I gain experience and a good portfolio. I have so so much to learn still! I am confessing all of this today to help hold myself accountable. I won’t shrink back from calling myself a photographer from now on. A beginner, sure, but a photographer nonetheless.
What quiet goals and hopes do you have for “one day”?
What are you afraid to admit to dreaming about?
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So, with trepidation and ample amounts of nail-biting nervousness… I give you: a sneak peak from my first “professional?” photo session. The photos turned out decently – I try not to see only the lavish amounts of criticism I could heap upon them. I am happy with them for a start, and I see several things to improve upon. A good beginning, I suppose!
Without further blah-blah-blah-ing… here is your sneak peak, S family. Thanks for the privilege of capturing a few shots of your gorgeous family!
Singing. My dream is to be a singer. I have been singing since I was 3 years old. I sing in the prisons, I sing in the shower, I sing around the house, I sang in church. That is my dream, my fear, that I am not as good as I want to be.
Aw, these photos look great! I am so proud of you. My quiet dream would be about my blog. I started it this year, and it’s growing slowly but surely. Then I see other people who have been blogging for a year or less and have thousands of followers. I would love that, and I hope someday I might get there.
Thanks Grace! I feel the same way about my blog too… that is such a scary dream, isn’t it? There are millions of blogs out there! Keep writing your heart.
What am I afraid to admit i dream about? Writing a book. One day I want to write a book. The kind of book that sweeps you up in it’s words and makes you feel more alive and challenged to deeper life all at once. Like ann Voskamp or brennan manning….(not that i want to be them….just that I want words to pour out of me as beautifully as they seem to pour out of them!) But me…write a book? I can hardly get my thoughts together for the simplest blog posts. I can hardly HEAR MYSELF THINK some days. And then there’s the fact that I don’t even really know what a semi-colon is for…. or what I would write about…
Congrats on your first professional photo session
I so hear you on the book thing. I’ve got that one too… perhaps so deep that I question the dream itself sometimes. But yes, to write like that? Oh man.
I think you’re a great writer by the way. It’s in you, you’re a natural. I’d read your book
Hi! This is my first visit and I found you thru 31 Days of…. I’m also a 31 Day-er.
Love your blog and your series title. I look forwad to reading more. I just had to comment b/c I’m a self-taught photographer and I’ve created quite a little business for myself. 
You CAN do it and you can learn as you go. You have to start somewhere….right? 
Anyway, if you ever have any questions or need any tips on starting your photography biz, I’d be glad to answer them or help. I wish I had some really inspiring/encouraging words for you, but I’m at a lost. Just know that I wanted to be able to stay home with my children bad enough 4 years ago and I took something that was my passion and ran. 
Lots of love and blessings, cat (www.catdmoore.com)
Hey Cat! Awesome, thanks for coming by and commenting. I checked out your blog and love it too! Let’s be bloggy friends, haha!
Thanks muchly for the photography encouragement. I might just take you up on your advice offer!
Sooo sweet! You did a great job! I think you are an amazing photographer, just like you are amazing with words. Keep at it!
Krista
Thanks Krista – your encouragement is always so great
I think it looks great! BTW congrats on the pregnancy =)
Thanks and thanks